What does it mean to have your soul awaken?
I’ll never forget the first time I heard someone talking about their personal awakening. I remember rolling my eyes as I pictured this person running naked in the forest, talking to the moon, and I thought to myself..
“there’s no way in hell that will ever be me”
My soul was asleep and desperately struggling to fit into a mold that was breaking me. I was up late one night (I hardly ever slept well back then because I had really bad night time anxiety) listening to someone on YouTube talk about their awakening because I was desperate for a change. I didn’t even know what that change was, but I knew I needed to find it. Even though I laughed out loud at the message and made fun of that person for a week, the message was haunting me.
“A kind of light spread out from her. And everything changed color. And the world opened out. And a day was good to awaken to. And there were no limits to anything. And the people of the world were good and handsome. And I was not afraid any more.”
― John Steinbeck
I feel FREE, ALIVE and full of RAW energy.
How did I get here?
Step 1: Clear your vision
First, I stopped eating, watching and surrounding myself with people and things that were clouding my vision. By that, I mean – clouding my ability to hear and follow my inner compass. Clouding my ability to see and hear what my next step needed to be. Clouding my ability to believe that I absolutely deserved the best life ever.
I began to eliminate the toxic foods and relationships in my life. I was listening to David Wolfe on YouTube late one night when I was feeling particularly sorry for myself, and he said something that really helped me not get overwhelmed. He said: “Just keep adding the good. One thing at a time and the bad will begin to eliminate itself.” Man, that’s the truth! I started small with just 3 things – clean spring water, juicing & brewing Chaga tea for the family. We did those things consistently as we continued to educate ourselves. There are so many amazing resources out there now. I started with YouTube because there was an abundance of great information available for free.
Some of my favorites online resources come from:
David Wolfe, Nadine Artemis, Nick Good, Bruce Lipton and Michael Mackintosh
“Walden” by Henry David Thoreau, The Anastasia Series by V. Megre (I recommend the original version which can be found on the ringing cedars of Russia website) and last but certainly not least “Amazing Grace” by David Wolfe and Nick Good
Your body and soul begin refusing the things that no longer serve you well.
Step 2: Get Grounded! Go outside!
Someone gave our oldest daughter a Comfrey plant. I tried to explain that I didn’t know what Comfrey was and I knew nothing about caring for plants so it was certainly going to die an awful death at our house. He replied: “That plant is calling your name. She wants to go with you. Just listen to her, she’ll tell you what she needs.” Oh, and did she ever! Comfrey in all her glory has brought healing to our families in more ways than I can count. If you are interesting in learning more about building a relationship with your plants and discovering their healing properties, look up Doug Simons, Susan Weed and the one and only Juliette de Bairacli Levy (amazing woman).
I remember thinking he was completely off his rocker..ha ha! Sneaky and wonderful man that he was, he knew I would have to put that plant outside because it wouldn’t survive, and I guess he could tell enough about me from our short meeting to know that I wouldn’t let it die.
I went outside, put my hands in the dirt for the first time and I never looked back. The world comes alive for me out there. I feel connected to myself, to all of you and to source. Source for me is the creative energy from which I came. The energy that guides me and sustains me.
There is LIFE for us in the ground that we’ve been so separated from. There is nothing that can calm you quite like putting your bare feet on the early morning dew or watching a beautiful sunrise.
Step 3: Connect with your instincts!
Erase it all and start from scratch!
Find a still, quiet place, close your eyes and ask yourself these questions:
If I had never been conditioned with how I should react to this life, if I had never seen someone love, parent, or communicate.. how would I do those things? If I was the very first human on earth, raising the very first children and loving for the first time- what would that look like?
Find it! Find those answers somewhere deep within you, because they are there. Find them and then be brave enough to follow them as best as this world will allow. And when there are rules set it place that keep you from following that guide…help change them!
Be brave enough to let your soul create the colors it was meant to create.
Coming out of your slumber, waking up, if you will, into a life that is right for your soul is going to be as unique and beautiful as the unique and beautiful soul that is awakening.
I love you and I wish you all the light, love and beauty this world has to offer.
“Once the soul awakens, the search begins and you can never go back. From then on, you are inflamed with a special longing that will never again let you linger in the lowlands of complacency and partial fulfillment. The eternal makes you urgent. You are loath to let compromise or the threat of danger hold you back from striving toward the summit of fulfillment.”
― John O’Donohue