I recently sat down and looked over the times in my life when I have hidden things from people I love.
I'm so glad I did because what I realized is:
My inner compass is really strong.
I'm not easily manipulated, I've never been a push over or a follower and I don't do things unless I get a really strong feeling that it's what I'm supposed to be doing.
So, why would I ever hide things?
Well, in asking myself this question, I can finally see that I didn't hide things because I felt that what I had done was wrong - I hid things simply because I knew that the people around me would think it was wrong.
It was my fear and my pride that silenced me, not guilt.
Fear: I knew how people would see me and how they would react and I wasn't brave enough to deal with it.
Pride: My ego was on a trip and I was trying to avoid losing losing face with those people.
It's not fun being judged or being shamed.
Actually, it fucking sucks! Probably the worst feeling EVER!!
But that's part of our reality and we can't let it stop us from doing what we came here to do.
Don't be ashamed of who you are and don't say sorry for doing what your heart told you to do.
If your intentions were pure and you did what felt right to you, then own it!
You can't shame a woman who is unashamed.
Not everyone is going to understand your journey, they aren't supposed to.
I've recently arrived at this place (I've been working my here for a long ass time) in this life, where I am no longer willing to apologize for myself.
People judge us based on their own perception of the world.
The world around you will see your actions through a filter of their own expectations, truths and their programmed ideas of right and wrong.
You don't have to own that shit. It's not yours!
We can't live our lives based on how other people will interpret our actions. No one ever found peace and purpose while trying to please everyone.
Forgive yourself for not being what everyone else needs and give yourself permission to do what your heart is telling you to do.
You already know the truth. Trust it.
If it feels right, it probably is. It doesn't need to make sense to anyone else.
Listen, people are going to be offended, but just because they are offended, doesn't mean they are right.
Be real about who you are and what you feel called to do.
My new motto: My apologies will be saved for the times when my courage fails and I wasn't brave enough to be transparent with the world around me.
People can think what they want of me.
As a whole, it's time for us to get real and that starts with me.